How I Got Here

I decided to create this blog as an outlet for my weight loss after struggling for years with my weight. I grew up as an overweight child and experienced all of the ridicule and embarrassment that comes with it. As a teenager I lost weight. But I was never really "skinny".  After having my first son I gained about 65 lbs and lost it QUICKLY. So of course when I got pregnant with my second son I thought I could do it again....WRONG! I gained 70 lbs on top of the 50 I gained after losing the weight from my first son when my husband and I moved into together (you know that your comfortable with who your with weight). That was 11 yrs ago. We have had 2 more children since our second and I have never gained more weight except while I was pregnant but always went back down to where I started after having my second because I was hard on myself the entire pregnancy. There was no more cakes, cookies, and burgers from the greasy non digestible fast food restaurants while I was pregnant....I was paranoid and rightfully so. I learned to HATE my body, not that I ever loved it because from about the age of 7 I have never been comfortable in my own skin. So here I am I just turned 31 on September 15th, I had a baby a year ago and nursed and tried losing weight...and I have I've lost 50 lbs BUT I'm not done and I'm ready to take my body back and love myself inside and out.